Praying Big Prayers

My faith is tiny. Many days I doubt that it is even half the size of a mustard seed.

Of course, I have those days, weeks, months when I boast in my faith. It’s not long before a trial comes and the truth is laid bare.

Matthew 8:25-27

²⁵ The disciples went and woke him, saying, “Lord, save us! We’re going to drown!”

²⁶ He replied, “You of little faith, why are you so afraid?” Then he got up and rebuked the winds and the waves, and it was completely calm.

²⁷ The men were amazed and asked, “What kind of man is this? Even the winds and the waves obey him!”

Yeah. Just put “Audra” in place of “You” and there you have it.

I don’t want to be a bother. I don’t want to show weakness. I don’t like to admit I am wrong. I HATE being told that I can’t do something (as in I am not equipped – too small, not smart enough – whatever). In my mind, I can do anything I put my mind to. Heck, I even became a lifeguard (at 4’11″ and 90lbs) just because someone told me I couldn’t do it.

Stubborn.

Prideful.

Sinful.

That’s me. When a problem arises, my first thought is about how I can do it ALL BY MYSELF (those three words are even the first words I recall reading on my own when I was four).  If I think of it, I’ll pray.

Sure, I will pray fervently for miracles for other people. I want God to bless them and work in their lives. Even though that I know in my heart that I have been redeemed and that when God looks at me, He sees Christ, I don’t feel worthy of Hi attention. I don’t feel worthy of His time. Of prayers.

Wow.

Thank you, Lord, for bringing the mess that is in my heart to light. Please help me through this issue. I can’t do it on my own even if I repeatedly convince myself that I can.

Our church is working through a book in small groups. I want to invite you all to join with me and work through just a chapter each week. We will start in three weeks. You’ll have plenty of time to get the book and read along with me.

Join with me to read Sun Stand Still and learn about praying BIG prayers and having AUDACIOUS faith.

Audacious faith.

I WANT THAT!

I’m about halfway through the book right now. It is certainly challenging my faith and spurring me to seek Him more fervently.  Take a few moments. Read about the book. Pray about it.

Join me.

Shake up your faith. Seek God’s will in your life.

Are you ready to make the Sun Stand Still?

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